dearest A,

I’m sorry for what i put you through last year. i never really thought to stop and consider how my actions affected you or how you felt about them. if i have scarred you for life, i’m extremely sorry and i hope you will find a way to forgive me. the lament i feel for all those nights (that one in particular) is substantial and i just wanted you to know. If i ever brought it up in person i know you’d probably get uncomfortable and downplay it. hell, you not once even mentioned to me how difficult it really was for you because you didn’t want to make a big deal out of it, but it really is not okay. i was so selfish and wrapped up in me me me that i didn’t even realize what i was doing to you. it truly is awful that i was too blind to see how i was hurting someone who i care about and was there for me. for that, i give you my deepest apologies and my deepest regrets.

Now, it’s been a year and i have moved on and i hope you can see i’m not the person i once was. finally, i was able to let go of all the anger and frustration i once held inside my heart and now i can breathe easily so you should get to do the same. don’t worry about me, i’m gonna be fine. thanks for remaining strong throughout that whole ordeal and for remaining my friend.

love,

ben

don’t be too offended by someone who is openly rude because they may be that way for the nicest of reasons. 

last night was ridiculous i can’t even

but i will later